y is it that sum people are cursed for lyfe while
Monday. 1.5.04 11:52 pm
...sigh...y is it that everything seems to always go wrong for me..i mean i'm not sayin that mai lyfe is absolutely worse than others...ie the poor hobos nd ppl living out in da streets...but im juss wondering y i gotta live such a cursed life...
im not religious or n e thing..(i guess im kinda wiccan)...but im starting to feel like im a jonah...i think that wot her name is...from da bible...isn't she supposed to be the girl who destroys everyone she loves but she doesn't mean to do it...or juss sumting bout hurting the ones who love her...well i guess i can kinda say that i'm like that...or maybe im more of a king midas...the guy who destroys everything he loves and causes himself more pain.....
tsk...y is it that wenever i try to get close to sumone....or put mai trust in someone...sumthing bad always happens...for once..juss once..would i like sum good to happen..i dun mean like find 20 dollars on da ground...or win a car (even though dat would be nice)...i want sumthing relationship related good to happen....
every time i actaully put mai heart into sumthing it always gets ruined...or i end up ruinin it...y is it that i always get hurt unintentionally?.....
it juss sux how some people live their lives all great no matter how poor or rich they are...they juss seem to always enjoy life nd life enjoys them...i've tried being like that...i've tried enjoying life...but it juss doens't work that way...i guess im juss not meant to live a lyfe like that.....
maybe i should juss becom a hermit...live in some isolated area....and live mai lyfe alone...where no one can bother me nd i can bother no one....wouldn't that be better.....wouldn't it be a better society if we were to get rid of all the pessimistics?...honestly..i dun think so...cuz the good can live widout the evil....so i guess the blessed cant live widout the cursed...
gosh...y does lyfe have to be so complicated.....
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